(Journal 204)

  Hello ladies and gentlemen...

As some of you may know, I haven't work and upload all of the:
-Otakuthon 2017 photos
-Otakuthon 2018 photos
-Mini Comic Con 2018 photos
(I think I finish all of the Comic Con 2017 photos? I'm not sure if I'm going to upload the other photos or I won't just for personal reasons.)
 
  They were suppose to be all uploaded in 2017 and 2018 all complete.
  I have forgotten about this.
 
The reasons why I haven't work on them:
1. I'm been busy with my personal life: School, serious things, etc...
2. I'm tired, exhausted, lazy, unstable, depressed and I suffer a burnout.
3. I'm doing my other hobbies and hobby tasks.
4. I'm doing some serious literature writing practice.
5. I'm more active in my current new dA: J25TheArcKing2.
6. I needed this break.

  The little good news is that yesterday I uploaded 16 photos from the 3 nerd / geek conventions.
  Maybe I might upload some more, depending if I'm feeling like too or if I'm active.

  If I change my mind and I'm uploading more of them, so that means I want to finish it all.

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  As you can from the title I'm putting it on hiatus.
  I'm taking a break, because I want to do the things that I want to do and I have forgotten about this since those past many years from 2011 to 2018.
  Sure I did the things that I like to do in the past years, but I have forgotten much of some of it that I kept focusing on nerd / geek conventions 24/7 and I have forgotten about myself.

  Maybe many months or next year I'll probably come back and make a return to finish all of the 3.

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  This is an important announcement that I would like to make...
  I have been thinking about this throughout the months / weeks / days.

  Once I'm done all of the 3 cons' photos, I'm no longer going to upload nerd / geek cons' photos...

The reason is because:
1. I'm tired of doing this.
2. I have forgotten about myself that I want to do the things that I want to do to make myself happy. My hobbies.
3. I have become an overgiver of doing this for everyone.
4. (Sorry for the drama) For my experience, in the past nerd / geek conventions there were nice people there, but now everybody is becoming rude / disrespectful and they're judging on the way you look, what character you're cosplaying as and what fandom you're in. It's kind of sad how they treat you differently on the way you're dressed. These rude / disrespectful people can't learn to grow up, have no respect and they're in their mid 20s, 30s. WTF! (I have a lot of things to say to be honest, but it'll take a lot of writing to write this done what I have to say...)

  But however I might upload some if I take some with my camera or I liked it or if I liked that cosplayer (if its a nice cosplayer, friendly, respectful, someone that I can trust).

  Well I guess this is it...
  This will be the last thing and then its over...
  The end of an era...

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  2019...
  Where the sacrifice begins...
  This will be the end...
  I'm very scared, nervous, stressed, shocked, unstable, exhausted, tired, depressed...
  I want to escape this...
  But I don't have a choice...
  To get cure and to be alive...
  For a checkup...
  Everything is going to change...
  I'm sorry to my family, relatives, best friends, friends, allies, fans, people who support me...
  No matter what happens...
  Our good memories will never be erased...

(Journal 203)

(Journal deleted in March 5, 2019. Journal was made in January 28, 2019.)

 

(Journal 202)

(Journal deleted in March 5, 2019. Journal was made in January 25, 2019.)

(New journal made in February 26 2020.)

  Hello ladies and gentlemen... 

  As some of you may know. 
  After years passed, I deleted the J25 The Arc King Group on deviantART. 
  The group was deleted on November 4 2019.

  The group focuses on my J25 The Arc King fanfiction series. It is a fan club.

The reasons why I deleted the group:
1. I'm not much active on running the group. I've been busy, tired, sleepy, exhausted, lazy, unstable, stale, lack of motivation and depressed.  
2. I wasn't working much on my J25 The Arc King fanfiction series.
3. The J25 The Arc King fanfiction series has ended. 

  At least I tried to run the group. And to see what running a group on deviantART is like.

  I have ended the J25 The Arc King fanfiction series on October 15 2019. After 13 years it has ended. 


Blog 2 is Here and End of J25 The Arc King Series 
(Journal 60)
  I guess this is it... This is the end of the road...
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  Hello ladies and gentlemen... 
  
  On My Blog series.
  On June 9, 2013 the first blog: Blog 1: How I got interested in the Internet and My YouTube Story was published.
  After 6 years has passed in 2019, Blog 2: About and Ending the J25 The Arc King Fanfiction Series is now published right now. Finally! Its been a very long time!
  Sorry if I took a very, very long time due to being busy with my personal life. I was tired, unstable, lazy, exhausted and very depressed. And I was doing other hobbies to motivate myself.
  But I'm finally back...! 
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  Welcome back to My Blog s You can read here in this quick journal that the series has ended.

Blog 2: About / Ending J25 The Arc King FanfictionBlog 2: About and Ending the J25 The Arc King Fanfiction Series
Notes:
  On June 9, 2013 the first blog: Blog 1: How I got interested in the Internet and My YouTube Story was published.
  After 6 years passed in 2019, Blog 2: About and Ending the J25 The Arc King Fanfiction Series is now published right now.
  I apologize that I took a very long time since many years has passed. I was been very busy, lazy, tired, unstable, angry and depressed due to my personal private life such as school, studying, chores and dealing with personal problems / issues. I’m also doing other hobbies that I like to do to motivate myself. I even have writer’s block too when writing stuff such as this blog.
  I hope writing this blog makes sense. I got a lot of things to say to be honest. I hope I don’t miss anything on the way.
  Alright let us begin this blog 2…
_ Or you can read here in this full blog.

  I'm sorry everyone... Things weren't working out at all and I have to give up on this group, especially the series.
  It was a little fun running the group and somewhat fun running the series.
  I guess this is it... 

“J25 will rise again!” – J25 The Arc King

(Journal 201)

(First journal of 2019 in my old dA.)
(Wow I notice Journal 200 was the last journal of 2018. And Journal 201 is the first journal of 2019. Ironic...)

  Hey everyone...

  In case you're wondering where are the old stuff?

  I am moving my old deviations to my new dA J25TheArcKing2 gallery.

  More info here in this journal:
Moving my Old Deviations to my New dA.
(Journal 17)
  Hello ladies and gentlemen...
  As you may notice in my old dA: J25TheArcKing, I have deleted some deviations off my gallery.
  I am moving things. I am transporting my old deviations to my new dA: J25TheArcKing2 to my gallery.
  I will be placing my fanfiction stories, literature writings, artworks, photos, etc... and etc... there.
  So don't worry if you don't see certain deviations in my old dA's gallery that was deleted and disappeared. It's going to be transported and moved to my new dA.
  I will be adding old descriptions, but they are edited with a better description, grammar, punctuation, spelling, etc...
  Some of the deviations are going to be edited or stay as the original one.
  This is going to tak

 

(Journal 200)

(Journal deleted in March 5, 2019. Journal was made in December 12, 2018.)

(New journal made in February 24, 2020.)

Hello ladies and gentlemen... 

  Its been so many years since 2011 to 2019 and 2020, 8 years and 9 years, I haven't even clean up my Gallery for a very long time. And its a big mess. 
  The Gallery is full with nerd / geek conventions' photos of cosplayers. 
  Some of the photos are good, great and ok.
  But some of the photos have bad quality, blurry and there's people in the way while taking some photos of cosplayers. 

  I feel anxious, stressed out, sick and depressed about seeing this big mess. I feel bad for myself.
  Its too much from what have I done. I didn't realize that I made a big mess on my gallery and I wasn't paying close attention.
  But I was still a very little young person at that time. I didn't have a strong consciousness yet. It was hard for me to realize it yet, due to my disability.
  I have much to learn and I was still learning. I started developing a better and strong consciousness. I was evolving like a human being as I'm learning to realize things.
  I make mistakes and fail. But I learn from my mistakes and I learn how to fix them. I learn to get back up and start all over again with a new plan B how to success by learning from my failures.
  I am not perfect, we will never be perfect human beings. We will make mistakes and we make failures. But we have to learn to start all over again and learn to let go of perfection. 

  Around the beginnings of January, this year's 2020 I started motivating myself. I started cleaning up my Gallery.
  I was cleaning up the old last pages.
  I'll be cleaning up the newer front pages. 
  That means I'll be cleaning up all of the whole entire Gallery.

  I'll be editing the descriptions and titles.
  I'll be arranging them and placing them in folders.

  I'm deleting the photos that have bad quality, blurry, and the people in the way while taking some photos of cosplayers. I'm deleting some for personal reasons.
  I'm deleting other arts if they aren't good enough and for personal reasons. 

  Recently I have deleted a lot of photos 200+ or more. Holy shoot...

  I'll be working on this from Monday to Friday a total of 5 days by doing 2 pages per day which makes 10 pages in total.

  I feel anxious, stressed out, sick, depressed, tired, lazy, bored and unstable to work on this. 
  But I need to do this! Because I made this big mess and it's my responsibility to clean this up. I don't want a bad repetition. 

  I'm even deleting and moving my old deviations to move them to my current dA: J25TheArcKing2.

  Anyways I got to go clean this all up right now...
  Wish me luck to take care of myself...

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  I pretty much regret everything from what I did throughout the years of deviantART.
  I forgot to clean up my gallery and I left it there with a big mess. 
  I still had fun in deviantART browsing around, commenting, favorites, making friends and allies, etc... And those good memories will never be erased.
  But I was forcing on nerd / geek conventions of cosplayers' photos than myself. 
  I wasn't myself. I wasn't forcing on the things that I want to do. My fanfiction stories, writings, other stuff etc...
  I have forgotten about myself... I can't believe... I regret this... I feel bad for myself...
  Sooner or later I'll be quitting these hobby tasks. 
  Its too much. And it has become chores where it was interrupting me making me force to do this.
  It ruined me completely...
  I still can't believe after years of being wasted. I'm burnout...
  When the time is right, I will quit these hobby tasks and move on...