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(Journal 152)


Friday
June 23, 2017
8:00 AM
Gum Surgery appointment.
  
  I'm going to have gum surgery.

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  Hello ladies and gentlemen...

  Today I just came back from one of my appointments from the other doctors' dentist.

  Something important that I have to announce.

  Around April. On my Activity Status on my profile page.
  I posted that I'm going to have 2 appointments from other doctors' dentists. So I went to the 1st appointment for a checkup on my gums today. 

  The 2nd appointment is something else, it has something to do with my tongue, the sides on my tongue. A checkup.

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After the 1st appointment today...

  Apparently I'm going to have gum surgery on Friday June 23, 2017. 8:00 AM.

  Its hard for me to explain this on what's happening between my gums and my teeth. Apparently it has something to do with my gums, the roots, upper teeth above, far end teeth on the sides aren't balanced. Its getting worse and the doctors need to do the surgery right away just to get things over with. This is really important for my health condition. They need to balance it my gums and my teeth. That's the reason why I'm going to have gum surgery.

  For this gum surgery they going to do the first left side on my gum and teeth. And then 2 weeks I'll have to come back and they will remove the stitches.
  And another appointment for the same gum surgery they going to do the right side on my gum and teeth. And then 2 weeks again I'll have to come back and they will remove the stitches.

  They said this surgery is a lot better than the wisdom teeth surgery which the wisdom teeth surgery was the worst (but for my experience it wasn't that bad getting the wisdom teeth surgery.) Wisdom Teeth Removal Surgery DoneSleep 
(Journal 141)
  Ladies and gentlemen...
  I'm back home from yesterday out of the dentist...
  My surgery... It went somewhat good. I didn't feel pain, only the needles from the beginning which it stings. During the surgery I didn't feel pain at all, just feeling numb and small bumps that didn't hurt and my eyes were close as I'm trying to sleep. Maybe its because the needles made me numb which the doctors were doing that. It took like 2 hours, ughh I don't remember I felt like I lost my memories after the surgery. After I woke up, I felt so much numb around my cheeks and gums, they place 2 paper towels in my mouth to stop the bleeding.
  From the beginning I was nervous on 2 things.
  1. Going to the dentist to get the 4 wisdom teeth removal surgery. I'm afraid of surgery.
 


  I feel nervous and scared, because I have a fear of surgery mostly because of the pain. But the doctors tell me not to worry and not to be nervous, everything will be fine.
  And they say I won't feel any pain during the surgery at all. I just hope so...
  
  Anyways on Friday, I'm going to get gum surgery.

  I'll post the finished journal of the after gum surgery once its all done.

  I hope I'll be alright...
  I hope to stay safe and stay healthy...

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  I hope I still feel well and and healthy
  I don't want to be in the afterlife. I'm scared of the afterlife.
  I know one of my relative's friend went in the afterlife during another different surgery. One of my parents told me that.
  I'm sorry for her loss and to her rest in peace... I hope you stay safe in the Heavens.
  We have to deal with our problems.
  The corrupt people, haters, terrorism.
  Other issues and problems. Something like stress and work.
  Now even our health condition just to stay healthy.
  Damn I saw/heard the surgery price is high as hell.
  But I understand its their job and surgery costs a lot.
  I don't want to talk about it.
  What? Did I just hear that I'm going to get braces on my teeth?
  • Listening to: Lost Impact - Shadow the Hedgehog (OST)
  • Reading: (Nothing)
  • Watching: (Nothing)
  • Playing: (Nothing)
  • Eating: (Nothing)
  • Drinking: (Nothing)
I've got too much work to do. 

(Journal 151)


  "I never knew this would have happened..."

  Bad news everyone...

  (I started writing this journal 2 months ago...) 

  Apparently a few days ago or 2 days ago...? Ughh I don't remember... It feels like amnesia... 
  I was going to login back to my old YouTube: Dengar999 to check on things and edit them.

  So when I was trying to login, it said it can't login, it can't recognize the device (my laptop computer?) And it needs a verified cellphone number and this Google Plus account bull$***.

  And I'm shocked, very stressed out and depressed to see this right now. I can't believe this would have happened.

  I mean I think I changed my cellphone number a long time ago...?
  And it's very difficult to do these verified login bull$*** and I can't remember if I did the verified thing already a long time ago? It's been a very long time since I don't even remember! 
  "Hey just do the "forgot username and code thing" and it'll be fine."
  Well its not damn easy going through this and that with your Google Plus and email, I already know my login, but my cellphone number was changed a long time ago? And if I tried to get the verified code, it might be send to a stranger's cellphone and the stranger might go to my YouTube. Remember I changed my cellphone number a long time ago.

  Man why do we have to rely on this advance technology bull$*** of Google Plus when some of us YouTubers we don't want to use it. I don't use Google Plus, it's not who I am and it's not my thing, I'm not use to it! And those YouTube updates and changes, I don't even like it!
  F*$%ing technology these days, the internet has everything and its changing for updates and new things that we have to rely on 24/7! We sometimes love, like, dislike and hate the changes, updates and newer things that we have to be use to. The internet has everything for all the information than books and articles in real life. We are relying on technology and the internet way too much!

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  You know I just hope I don't lose my old YouTube: Dengar999.
  I just hope it doesn't get suspended, banned forever or hacked.

  I made history and these are such good memories when I was a kid to a teenager to growing up on being on YouTube.
  I have 32 videos, 161 subscribers (I lost some subscribers due to moving to Dengar9999 and not making videos on my old channel Dengar999,) 43,821 views in my channel. And I joined YouTube in August 24, 2007.

  I have videos marked with copyright marks, but it was just some, maybe about 5 or 8 videos/times. It's not a lot.
  I don't send in hate comments or rude comments on the comment sections, I a little bit use to, but that was in the past.
  I improve and I am a much better good person. 
  I'm innocent and I did nothing wrong. 
  I just make videos for fun as a hobby.

  There are a lot of people who did a lot worse than me.
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  It happens to everybody. Its not only me. I'm not the only one...
  I seen someone lose their YouTube channel, because of the Google Plus account thing that ruins the login. That person has to make a new one.
  People on YouTube lose their login for their channel, because of the Google Plus account thing that ruins the login, people get hacked, suspended or banned.

  Even though YouTube uses bots to track down people videos that has a connection sync to copyright materials.

  We lose things in our personal lives. We lose other things such as something collectible like a video game, CD, DVD, a toy, etc... We lose our friends who become our former friends either they move far away from you, betray or backstab you.

  There are other websites that I quit and left, because I lost interest, I'm tired of it and bored of it, I don't like certain changes or I just quit, or moved on. Such as Habbo Hotel, Runescape, Club Penguin, Roblox, Lego.com, Hot Wheels, Steam, FurAffinity, etc...

 
I seen YouTubers quit and still has their videos and their channel on YouTube.
They move on for the future in their personal lives and left YouTube. Of letting go... Maybe because of work, college, school, etc...

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  Sooner or later I might probably maybe make a blog out of this in My Blog. Telling more about my YouTube channel Dengar999 and everything about my history on YouTube. Even though I already made my YouTube story and how I got interest in the internet in my 1st blog: Blog 1: How I got to internet and My YouTube Story . Hmm maybe, because already Blog 1 explains my YouTube story and my journey.

  BUT for some good news, well 1 week ago I saved a lot of screenshots of my 2 YouTube channels Dengar999 and Dengar9999 pages, videos and videos date when it was made and views, etc... I saved those screenshots somewhere safe such as my USB just to keep them to remember those good memories in the past and on my private Facebook.
  This is great for backup. To remember those good old past memories to not be erased in case my channels get taken down..

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  I just hope my 2nd current one Dengar9999 doesn't have to do this again with another computer in case my laptop breaks.

  I deleted my email account for Dengar9999 by accident which I didn't knew it was connected to my 2nd YouTube channel.

  Bad News: My 2nd YouTube, Email, Google Plus(Journal 135)
  Bad news everyone.
  To my friends, fans, people who support me. Just looking at the title, I got some bad news.
  So there is my YouTube: Dengar9999
  My Google Plus (which I don't bother to look at it and care about it, I don't use Google Plus at all. I don't like Google Plus.)
  And one of my emails.
  Apparently I did a mistake which was possibly broken. 
  I... apparently... deleted/closed... one... of... my... emails... a very long time ago in one of the years. 2013? 2014? I don't remember maybe because I figure out there wasn't a point on having this email.
  And this email was part of my YouTube Dengar9999. 
  $hit what was I thinking!? Its going to be impossible to get my YouTube Dengar9999 back if someone hacks through it which I have to be real careful!&
 it feels like this...

  The only thing I do on YouTube is I just watch videos, listen to music, press the like or dislike button for a rating on a video.
  I don't and no longer much make YouTube videos anymore or comment on videos, people, etc...

  I'm more active in deviantART.
  And Nintendo Network, PlayStation Network, FanFiction.net.


  I'm more active on Dengar9999 than Dengar999 on YouTube.
  I just want to let go of this dark past and move on. I never want to hang around it for far too long, but to move on with my life and erase this dark past...

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  We all have to make sacrifices and choices in the end...
  
  Even though those good old memories on YouTube on my YouTube channel Dengar999 will be remember and not forgotten on the history I made. They're still in my brain in my memories those good old times, I can write them down which is long and a lot of words to say...
  
  I guess there is no choice but to leave it there forever. For those old memories of the past...

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Dengar999
161 subscribers, 43,821 views
Joined Aug 24, 2007
32 videos


August 24, 2007 - April 25, 2017, 8:24:20 PM (I started this blog in that date.)

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  I never knew I would become so depressed. It all started in 2014 to 2017... I became much sad, PTSD, scared, OCD, rage, depressed, lazy, unstable, obsession.

  I become more afraid of using the internet, because of problems, issues and errors like these.
  I hate getting into trouble. I'm innocent. I did nothing wrong. 
  
  I hate my music addiction. I keep listening to music 24/7 non-stop on my free time hobbies. I need to stop right now and do my free time hobbies instead, or read some articles how to stop this music addiction, or talk to someone like a family or a relative, etc...

  I hate getting this bad luck around 2014 to 2017. Some problems and issues always happens and I have to solve and deal with these problems on days.
  Computer viruses theory and computer updates theory obsession, mean/rude people who talk behind your back and laugh at you f*#^ing gossiping, dealing with difficult paper works in real life and other stuff as well.
  I lost my mind...
  I just don't feel the same way no more...
  What a downfall it has become...
  What have I become...
  • Listening to: BabyMetal
  • Reading: Wikipedia
  • Watching: Spongebob Squarepants
  • Playing: Kane & Lynch 2: Dog Days (PS3)
  • Eating: Sausages, potatos, eggs, butter bread, bacons
  • Drinking: Starbuck Frappuccino vanilla glass bottle
I think I've fainted. 

(Journal 150)


  Hey everyone... 
 
  So as you can see from the title, I keep getting this PlayStation Network / PSN error code on my PlayStation 3. It happens pretty much every time I turn on my PlayStation 3 and when I check on somebody's profile or sync my trophies' collection.
  
  Sorry to say this, but I won't reveal what the error code is called, because I don't want to talk about it. I know it sounds ridiculous that I should always talk about the problem what I'm dealing with which is the answers to everything to solve the problem. But I did some research on it and I didn't like what I expected from people's reactions, how to solve it, and their responses, etc... Sorry.

  All I do with my PlayStation 3 is play my video games, watch my DVD movies and shows, buy and download games and some movies on the PlayStation Store.
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  Ok I'm going to explain it:
  
  So when I want to check on my friends or people (Players Met) on their profile and trophies by pressing the X button on it. 
  
  When its either:
  Syncing trophies (I hate it when you didn't get any new trophies or got all of the trophies or there is no trophies for a certain game, it wants to sync again. Like come on I don't have any new or updated trophies that I received. But I understand its for the system syncing to work. This is a waste of time!)
  Or loading to display their profile and trophies.
 
  Now its about to load the person's profile and trophies.

 
And then this error code pops in.

  When I turn back and press the x button again. I sometimes get the error code or its gone and fine if I keep on going back and pressing it again and again like 2 or 3 or 4 times.? Just by taking my time with patience.

=

  Or if I'm checking on my trophies' collection by pressing the x button. Or comparing a person's trophies to my trophies.

  I get this error code that pops in.

  And I have to go back and try again.

  When my/their trophies are loading and displaying or when I want to check on a certain games' trophies.
  Either My PlayStation 3 freezes and breaks.

  And the system has to restart the loading to not get corrupted by a doing a checking and loading.
  And then the PlayStation 3 is starting now after the checking and loading is done.
  
  Or it gives me the error code and it breaks the trophies' display which there is no turning back and no other choice, but to turn off the PlayStation 3 to restart it again.

  I don't have a choice but if I want to view my trophies' collection...
  I have to view trophies offline like without logging in.
  Or look at it on my PlayStation 4 (even if the games are not alphabetical order, but in the recent games that I played.)
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  I can't believe it... I hate how I got this error code. I think I got this error code around 2016 to 2017(I don't think I got it in 2015?) This is bull****! This error code creeps me out and stresses me out. I don't even know how this happen?
 
  Was it:
  1. PlayStation / Sony updates?
  2. Connection issues of plugging my PlayStation 3 back to my TV after placing my Nintendo Wii to my TV.
  3. PlayStation 4 games' trophies syncing to my PlayStation 3 and PS3 games trophies?
??????????????????
  Its something that these are my theories that is making me wonder?

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  Oh good news... When I'm buying and downloading a game, movie, show on the PlayStation Store, its fine. The downloading takes its time and I'm patience with it.

  I hope I don't get the error code and it doesn't interrupt when I'm downloading a game, movie, show on PlayStation Store or when I'm buying something.

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  I hate these bad lucks and negativity that I'm getting, from like 2014 to 2015. 2016? 2017?
  How did the hell did I became so depressed, sad and angry in rage and so ill?
  Dealing with difficult paper works in real life and other stuff as well.
  Dealing and drawing into theories about computer viruses, errors, lag on my computer.
  Ignoring rude people who gossip and talk behind your back in public.

  There is always like problems we have to deal with everyday. And I hate it...
 
  Nobody is perfect, there will always be some mistakes...

  Life is so complicated... Its hard to get freedom and peace...
 
  • Listening to: Happy Ending - Spider-Man 3 Soundtrack
  • Reading: FanFiction stories on FanFiction.net
  • Watching: The Karate Kid Part II
  • Playing: Nier (PS3)
  • Eating: Chinese chicken soup with egg, bread, 2 bacons
  • Drinking: Coffee
Spyed (deviantART CEO) 

(Journal 149)


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GeekFest, Montreal Mini Comic Con, Otakuthon pics.=( (Sad) 
(Journal 146)

"I couldn't believe how unstable I have become..."   Hello ladies and gentlemen...
  Sorry to repeat this over and over again...
  It's been 1 year and many months passed...
  Now its May 1, 2017. 
 
And I haven't even finish uploading all of the 3 Nerd / Geek conventions' photos.
From:
-GeekFest Montreal 2015
-Montreal Mini Comic Con 2015
-Otakuthon 2016.

  I haven't even finish uploading all of the cosplay, cosplayers, my cosplay photos.
  This has been such a complete downfall. These 3 cons' photos were suppose to be finished already in 2016. (Well for GeekFest Montreal 2015 and Montreal Mini Comic Con 2015, it would have been finished in 2015. While for Otakuthon
 From the beginning...

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  Its all over... 
  On May 12, 2017 its all finish the photos of GeekFest Montreal 2015, Montreal Mini Comic Con 2015 and Otakuthon 2016.
  After 1 year and many months passed it has been, I have finish uploading all of the photos... Finally...!
  I'm so glad!!!!!

 
Well some of the photos weren't published due to bad quality, being not good enough, personal reasons, people being on the way of the photos.

 
How I finish the 3 cons' photos of all is I push myself to upload them all and work on them by editing, finishing and publishing them on those days passed.
  There were days were I was so busy, lazy, depressed, unstable, stalling, stressed out, burnout. But then when I push myself to get back up I'm finally working on them.
  
  I'm free!!! I'm free to do my free time stuff and hobbies that I like to do that makes me happy such as my J25 The Arc King FanFiction stories, My Blog, Rant n Opinions, writings, drawings, other projects, etc... and etc... On my deviantART.

  This has become one of the biggest downfalls for me in deviantART for the end of 2015 and for 2016, and for 2017.
  It's been so long that I haven't even publish them all yet.
  Damn I find the time goes way too fast, sorry to repeat that again. 
  When I want to get out of something and escape something I don't like, the time slows down and I get stuck there.
  When I want to stay on something that I like and enjoy, or to finish something that I have to do, the time goes way too fast!

  Time is fast, I'm having some time management problems. This really pisses me off!
  I just want to edit, finish and publish the photos that I took and like, then the time goes way too fast as days, months and 1 year passed. Got dammit I hate it!

  I hate this burnout I receive.
  I hate how my computer is being glitchy at times. I probably need a new computer soon...
  Man I never get more time anymore and its already almost the end of May!

  But hey its all over now... I finish them all and I'm free...
  
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  Next time I should speed/pick up the pace instead of being lazy, depressed, bored and stalling instead of being late. I should have finish them all around 2015 (for GeekFest Montreal 2015 and Montreal Mini Comic Con 2015) and 2016 (for Otakuthon 2016.) To push myself for motivation that I will finish it and be on time without wasting it for months and 1 year. But hey its all over now...

  If I go to another Nerd / Geek convention (well like Otakuthon 2017, if I'm going...?) Once I'm done taking photos in the con, I better edit them and upload them right now instead of being lazy, depressed, bored and stalling or else it'll make me be stuck like last time of uploading the GeekFest Montreal 2015, Montreal Mini Comic Con 2015 and Otakuthon 2016 photos. 

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  Now the next thing I have to do is whatever I want. Because I'm free...

  Well I have to like edit the gallery folders and deviations and descriptions from my gallery page in my deviantART.
  But maybe next time for gallery folders and deviations and descriptions I will edit them.
  Why did I involve myself into this...

  I just want to do the things that I like to do that makes me happy...

  Alright its over...
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  • Listening to: Final Call by Shadows Fall
  • Reading: Miraculous Ladybug Adventures comic issue1 preview
  • Watching: Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2
  • Playing: Mortal Kombat XL (PS4)
  • Eating: Skittles
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola
CURSE YOU! 

(Journal 148)


Free Comic Book Day 2017
Saturday, May 6, 2017.
Montreal Quebec, Canada.


  Hello ladies and gentlemen... I just got back from those 2 days from Free Comic Book Day 2017 and watching in the theatres Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 with my 2 best friends.
  And I enjoyed both of them. Free Comic Book Day 2017 was good... And Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 was great!

  Let me talk about the ending of my experience for Free Comic Book Day 2017, and then Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 on my thoughts about the movie.

  Ok doki here we go!

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  Before that day starts, in those few days I started packing my equipment and cosplay and props, pins/buttons, camera, etc... in my bag. I decide to wear my Cat Noir (Miraculous Ladybug) cosplay for practice to set up my cosplay and equipment for a test. And it was working well... (I just only need the anime blond hairstyle wig and my cosplay will be complete.)

  The day starts...
  I woke up in the morning, ate breakfast and started getting change. It was raining in the morning, but then it stopped. Oooo...
  I leave the house and started walking to the mall. The walking is like 40 minutes or shall we say 1 hour depending on my walking speed. Was pretty long. Damn! It was a walking exercise for me woooh! The back of my ankles hurt, owww non-stop walking...!
  So I made it to the mall. I took a few minutes of a break drinking water due to the 40 minute walk. I need to take some breathes and a break to rest for a bit. Now I continue.
  I walk to the comic book store eXpertComics and I finally made it.

  There wasn't a line of people. Just less people inside the store.
  I see a Daredevil (Daredevil) cosplayer and an Iron Fist (Iron Fist) cosplayer in the entrances. Great cosplayers.

  I was about to go to a corner to get change to my Cat Noir cosplay.
  But the bad news is I just decide to go inside the comic book store instead without even cosplaying as Cat Noir. Because I rushed, got stage fright, went ashamed in front of people, thought there was no point of cosplaying if there is less cosplayers. Damn that sucks. I should have been brave enough and I should have taken my time.
 
  So yeah I went inside the store.
  I see a Wonder Woman (Wonder Woman) cosplayer. Nice cosplayer... She actually works in the store and is nice to me, she gives me my comics that I buy. I know it a little bit...
  There were less people in there, inside the store.
  I'm allow to take 5 free comics. So I took my time and got the 5 free comics.

  The 5 free comics that I got are Miraculous Ladybug, The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess, others etc... and etc...
  YES I GOT THE PREVIEW OF THE 1ST ISSUE OF MIRACULOUS LADYBUG! ONCE THE WHOLE ENTIRE 1ST ISSUE ARRIVES, I'LL TRY TO COLLECT ALL OF THE ISSUES OF THE COMICS OH YEAH!!!
  WOO HOO MIDNA YEAHHHHH!!!!!!! I AM A NUMBER 1 MIDNA FAN, THAT'S WHY I GOT THE LEGEND OF ZELDA: TWILIGHT PRINCESS COMIC! I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY MADE A COMIC (OR MANGA) OUT OF THIS! MAYBE ITS OUT RIGHT NOW!?

  I gotta read them all sooner or later! Looks damn interesting those 5 free comics, it was worth getting them!

  I went to the cashier, the owner of this store, this guy is nice to me when I buy my comics on some of those Saturdays. He gave me my comic and the other worker wrapped my 5 free comics and placed my comic inside the bag. The other worker she gave me a free rubber band bracelet. The owner ask me if I want to enter some kind of Comic Con contest, but I denied it, even though its free, but I'm not interest in it. 

  So I took some photos with my camera of the Daredevil and Iron Fist cosplayers, then the Wonder Woman cosplayer. 

  After that I left and went home.
  Walking back home for 40 minutes was ok, I somewhat got use to it than the beginning of the morning of walking to the mall. Maybe because I already walked and I got use to it. I adapted to the walking.
  And I made it home.

  I enjoyed Free Comic Book Day 2017, it was good...

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  Back at home, I started playing Mortal Kombat X on my PS4 for a hobby break.
 
  Bad news. Apparently the back of my ankles hurt. It feels like I got blisters for walking non-stop for 40 minutes. I looked at my back of my ankle socks, I see its all dark red. I was wondering if I got hit by puddle of water. But it turns out that I was bleeding the whole entire time during the walk for 40 minutes! Holy crap! It stings, it hurts like blisters. 
  I take off my socks and added some lotion and I changed my socks.
  God damn, after feeling a pain of stings during the walk, I started bleeding and I didn't notice that. I thought I just had blisters and that's it, but I was bleeding the whole entire time, s*** I need to be more careful next time and should have taken my time!
  And I was wearing black leather shoes while walking. (The black leather shoes were suppose to match my Cat Noir cosplay.)
  So I started walking slowly and gently when I need to get something or go eat lunch.

  Then I was eating lunch. Some homemade tacos!

  Now I was going to the theatres to meet my 2 best friends so we can watch Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2.
  I took a transport with my relative to drop me off the theatres and I was waiting for my 2 best friends to arrive. 

  I see a Deadpool (Deadpool) cosplayer and a Wolverine (X-Men) cosplayer on eXpertComics. Cool cosplayers. I wonder if they're the same people/cosplayers that were cosplaying as Daredevil and Iron Fist?

  And my 2 best friends finally arrived in a few minutes. And we went to the theatres to get our tickets and food and to watch Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2.
  It was a little crowded of people and there was a line for the movie. Because we started watching this movie in the 2nd day the movie was released and it was a Saturday weekend where people take a break and do things at the mall to take a visit.
  My best friend prefers to watch movies in the theatres with less people and on days where the certain movie was released a couple of weeks ago.

  So we finally went inside the theatres to watch the movie.
  And we finally finished it!

  The movie was great, even though I prefer the first one. But this 2nd movie was still a great movie! I enjoyed it! Go Batista Drax the Destroyer, Rocket Racoon woo hoo!

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  I never knew that I would enjoy this day of Free Comic Book Day 2017 and watching Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 with my 2 best friends.
  That was a good day! It was so positive and safe and peaceful. I'm glad that things worked and went well!

 
I'll give Free Comic Book Day 2017 a 7/10 for my experience of enjoyment.
+ Got 5 free comics and my comic.
+ I enjoyed the movie with my 2 best friends.

+ I see a few cool cosplayers.
  
  For the photos I might upload them or not, why because I don't want to talk about it or reveal it, but apparently I got a comment from someone on one of my deviations saying stuff about publishing things. So I have to be aware about that what I'm posting, I just don't want to cause any problems at all. I'm innocent.

  I might come back next year to Free Comic Book Day for 2018. Next time I'll cosplay. I mean I cosplay from 2011 to 2017, why did I became so stage frighten, ashamed in front of people, rushed, thought there was no point of cosplaying? I should have cosplay and do something that makes me happy! Awww man, such a bad idea what I did there without cosplaying. I carry my bag with my cosplay all for nothing.

  Until then...
  "See you next time!" - Mario.
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  • Listening to: Pjanoo (Club Mix) by Eric Prydz
  • Reading: (Nothing)
  • Watching: Predators
  • Playing: Mario Kart 8 (Wii U)
  • Eating: Chicken nuggets and chicken soup with dumplings
  • Drinking: Milk with maple syrup
Ninja 

(Journal 147)


Free Comic Book Day 2017...
  Free Comic Book Day 2017...

  Free Comic Book Day 2017
  Saturday, May 6, 2017.
  Montreal Quebec, Canada.

 
Its been a while since I went to Free Comic Book Day, since I skipped Free Comic Book Day 2016, because I wasn't interest in it at all and I was busy, lazy and I didn't have much time.
  The only ones I've been through is 2014 (I hated my experience there, f***ing rude people there.) and 2015 (I liked it, especially going there with my friends.)

  I didn't know they're going to have a Free Comic Book Day on Saturday May 6, 2017, but they always do that on the first day of Saturday in May.
  How I heard about this is because, apparently sometimes on Saturdays I always go to pick up one of my comics at my local comic book store eXpertComics / ExpertComics in my local mall. This Saturday I was going to pick up one of my comics and that's it and leave. Apparently I wonder if there was going to be Free Comic Book Day on May or June. But I heard its going to start at May this Saturday and I'm surprised like woh! I didn't notice that!

  I was wondering if I'm going to skip it and just go on Sunday to pick up my comic instead. 

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  Why? Because to be honest for my experience I am getting sick and tired and piss off about the rude Nerd / Geek community how rude people are with no respect. Always creating problems and causing wars, judging people's fandoms and the character they're dress up as and interests and the way they look of their appearance and looks, causing internet flame wars, taking photos without permission and sending it to the internet of creating a bullying meme.
  I hate it how people treat you differently if you're dress up as a certain character they hate. Like you have a lot of interests you know than just one thing. Can be understand: "looks can be deceiving..."

  People are so cruel and rude nowadays. I hate this future. People can't grow up and they're in their 10s, 20s, 30s and are still judgemental!? What the f***!?

  That's kind of the reason why I don't go much on Nerd / Geek conventions. I just had enough... I just go to Otakuthon and that's it.

  The best way is move on, ignore and let go of this.
  Always stick with your families, relatives, best friends, friends, fans, allies, people who support you. They love/like you.


  I need to be prepare to do my Cosplay & Nerd / Geek Conventions, Rants n Opinions sooner or later. I haven't even started yet, just the beginning parts and ideas! But this is good writing practice. I really got a lot of things to say.

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  But I made my decision...
  
  It's official, I'm going to Free Comic Book Day 2017.
  I'm going to walk to my nearest mall to my nearest Comic Book store on eXpertComics / ExpertComics. I'll walk for an exercise, it'll take like a 1 hour walk. But I'm kind of use to it.
  By myself, because my best friends and friends are not interest in it and are busy. Lone Wolf like Baron Corbin (WWE.)
  
  I'll probably be cosplaying as...
  Cat Noir (Miraculous Ladybug) cosplay. I got my Cat Noir costume for my birthday. The only thing I'm missing is the anime blond hair wig. But I'll get the wig sooner or later. What I'm going to do is make a paper mask of Cat Noir's face instead to cover up my face as a mask.
  Something like this: Mon Arme by drillbot14kv3 of a parody.
  I'll be carrying my staff lightsaber as well.
  
  Or I might wear a Deathstroke (Deathstroke) mask and some regular clothes instead. Even though I'm only here to pick up free comics and my comic and that's about it.

  But I'm probably going to be cosplaying as Cat Noir.

  So there going to give some comic books for free obviously. And I heard there are going to give away a preview of the 1st Miraculous Ladybug comic book series. I feel surprise about that, I definitely want to pick that up if they sell it for sure, I hope so. And once its release in July the Miraculous Ladybug comic book series, I might collect them all those comics! Miraculous Ladybug for the win! YES!

  Maybe I'm even going to take some photos of any cosplays that shows up. I am bringing my camera as well.
  I'm going to set my pins/badges attached to my bag.

  I'm even going to watch the Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 2 movie with my 2 best friends after that... Woo hoo!

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  I wonder if any of you boys and girls, my friends, fans, watchers, people who support me are going to Free Comic Book Day 2017 on your local mall and local comic book store? 

  Anyways that's all for now...


  • Listening to: Main Theme - Assassin's Creed Rogue OST
  • Reading: Homefront: The Voice of Freedom
  • Watching: Four Brothers (movie clips)
  • Playing: Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 3 (PS3)
  • Eating: Egg soup with noodles and garlic bread
  • Drinking: Water bottle
=( (Sad) 

(Journal 146)


"I couldn't believe how unstable I have become..."
  Hello ladies and gentlemen...
  Sorry to repeat this over and over again...

  It's been 1 year and many months passed...

  Now its May 1, 2017. 
 
And I haven't even finish uploading all of the 3 Nerd / Geek conventions' photos.
From:
-GeekFest Montreal 2015
-Montreal Mini Comic Con 2015
-Otakuthon 2016.


  I haven't even finish uploading all of the cosplay, cosplayers, my cosplay photos.

  This has been such a complete downfall. These 3 cons' photos were suppose to be finished already in 2016. (Well for GeekFest Montreal 2015 and Montreal Mini Comic Con 2015, it would have been finished in 2015. While for Otakuthon 2016, it would have been finished in 2016. Or all 3 as well.) And they haven't been uploaded all yet.
  I'm very late! 
  I feel so disappointed...

  And I repeat this multiple times, but I FIND THE TIME GOES WAY TOO FAST! LIKE WHAT THE F***!? IT'S ALREADY MAY!? AND 2017!? IT STILL FEELS LIKE 2015 TO ME!
  WHENEVER I WANT TO TAKE MY TIME ON SOMETHING, THE TIME GOES WAY TOO FAST!
  WHENEVER I WANT TO GET OUT AND LEAVE ON SOMETHING, THE TIME GOES WAY TOO SLOW!
  WHY CAN'T I GET MORE TIME OFF TO FINISH THIS!? I DON'T EVEN HAVE TIME NO MORE!
  THIS TIME GOES WAY TOO FAST! THE MONTHS, WEEKS AND DAYS ARE TOO FAST!

  I have become so slow and unstable nowadays. I don't even feel the same way and I don't feel like myself no more. I have change...
  Man in the past I use to be active and fast and right on time doing my hobbies and tasks. I was having a lot of fun.
  But now I'm not on time and I'm becoming late, slow and lazy and depressed. I'm having a burnout.

  Its because of:
-I've been busy with school, and I've been studying, and I've been checking on paper works. I'm doing chores as well.
-I have become lazy, unstable, slow, stressed out, depressed to do my hobbies and tasks. I have a burnout.
-I've been afraid of using my laptop computer, because its being glitchy, running a little slow, it keeps getting computer updates, I'm worried if there are computer viruses in my laptop. (Worst past is I haven't even turn off my laptop for days, due to a fear of the glitches, lag, computer updates, and worried if there are computer viruses.) I get a fear of technology errors, glitches, computer viruses.
-I do a lot of things from hobbies such as playing video games, reading, writing, watching shows and movies, drawing, taking photos, cosplay, working out gaining some muscles, etc... and etc...
-And I don't even get enough time now. Time goes way too fast! I've been busy and lazy lately.

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  BUT the good news is all of the Otakuthon 2016 photos are finished. They all have been uploaded. Edited and done in my gallery.

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  Now I just have the photos of GeekFest Montreal 2015 and Montreal Mini Comic Con 2015 left to be finished.
 
  I only have 38 photos or more to go?
  Some of the photos I just need to edit the quality. Some of the photos I'll keep as the original ones without edit (I prefer it original for these certain photos, because it looks good anyways.) Some of the photos will be edited with "Paint" and other apps to cover up things. And some of the photos will be cropped, because there are some people in the way.

  Once I'm all done, it'll be all over and I'll finally be free.
 
After all of these 1 year and many months passed...


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  I just hope my laptop doesn't crash or break completely. I just don't want to get my laptop repaired.
  But the good news is I saved the photos on one of my USBs for a backup save.
  I never get the time to do the things that I like to do in deviantART and stuff. I'm not even having fun no more. Its like becoming a task, homework, assignment, and a chore that needs to be done.
  Why did I did this to myself and involve myself to do these upload photos when I didn't even finish yet? And these hobbies' tasks as well? Do the Rant & Opinions, J25 The Arc King FanFictions, My Blog, You Know What Pisses Me Off, drawings, photos etc... and etc...
  I feel like Max Payne from Max Payne 3. Being so depressed, unstable, slow, stressed out, burnout, lazy. The best part is I don't drink alcohol and I don't smoke.
 
Oh I hate my music addiction...
  • Listening to: Slipknot
  • Reading: Wikipedia
  • Watching: Arbiter617 (YouTube channel)
  • Playing: Super Smash Bros. Brawl (Wii)
  • Eating: Scores Restaurant Chicken fries and butter bread
  • Drinking: Orange juice
Personal Computer 

(Journal 145)


(LATE POST)


Finally edited in April. 5, 2017.
Re-edited version.


This is the original first old journal:

Introducing J25 The Arc King's Blog on deviantART!(Journal 10)
(Edited in April. 4, 2017.)
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:iconj25thearcking: :iconmidnaplz: :iconakatsukikonanplz: :iconclairefarronplz: :iconrukia-plz: :iconrainbowdashblushplz: :iconapplejackblushplz: :icondj-pon3plz:
Ladies and gentlemen! Welcome to :iconj25thearcking: J25 The Arc King's Blog :iconj25thearcking: series on deviantART! My blog which I will be posting stuff that are pretty much important about myself and updates on what's happening and stuff! I will be publishing and updating stuff on this blog which will be uploaded on deviantART on either my journals or deviations as literature? I need to think about that? So keep in touch and try to keep track and read my blog about the news and updates on what's happening on me! Each will be written: Day (insert number here) for a blog number to keep track on one of my blogs I made. So check it out! (Yeah I will add stuff on my blog.)
To tell the truth I was abou


I changed J25 The Arc King's Blog title to now Blog instead:
Changing J25 The Arc King's Blog to Blog instead.(Journal 66)
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(Edited in April. 28, 2016.)
In case you`re lost read this:
http://j25thearcking.deviantart.com/journal/Introducing-J25-The-Arc-King-s-Blog-on-deviantART-375985123
I'm changing the title of the journal: J25 The Arc King's Blog to just: Blog.
Why, because J25 The Arc King is my OC (original character) and my username is named after my OC. I rather talk about stuff and myself with a blog. So I rather call it a blog instead of something like: "oh this is my OC's blog." No way! This is about stuff and myself.
First blog:
http://j25thearcking.deviant


Here in this journal is going to be a new written re-edited version of myself introducing My Blog series which I'm going to explain and talk about:
1- Introducing My Blog series.
2- Why I made this blog series rather than a vlog series.

3- I edited again the first blog entry: "Blog 1:
How I got interested in the Internet and My YouTube Story" for over years passed, finally.

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  1- Hello ladies and gentlemen, welcome to the My Blog series! This is where I will be posting stuff that are pretty much important stuff about myself and updates on what's happening and stuff! I will be publishing and updating stuff on these blogs on my deviantART which will be uploaded as deviations as literature. So keep in touch and try to keep track and read my blogs about the news and updates on what's happening on me!

  I name the title blog, just to keep things basic and simple.

  When I make a new blog, it will mark a blog number such as: Blog (insert number here.) to keep track on one of my blogs I made and the topic title of the blog. So check it out. 

  Please note, I will rarely do these blogs, because I will only write and upload the most important stuff on this blog series.

  2- I was suppose to make this a vlog series vlog video in my YouTube channel: Dengar9999, but I cancel it. The reason why I made this a blog rather than a vlog is because I'm not really good at making commentaries due to my voice not being good enough and I sometimes pronounce some words not properly which I don't talk a lot in real life and I'm a quiet and shy guy. I say the wrong thing which I want to say the right thing but sometimes I got really got nothing to say, but in my mind I got a lot of things to say. I'm not really much into talking on what I want to spit out which I always get this writer's block problem which I got all of my ideas in my brain, but I don't know how to say it or write it down. So I decide if I'm good at something, I'll just write this as a blog instead than using my voice and I don't make much YouTube videos anymore. I wrote these blogs in Microsoft Word 2010 as a script. 

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  3- After 4 years or 4 and a half years passed? I have finally edited again the first blog entry: Blog 1: How I got interested in the Internet and My YouTube Story Blog 1: How I got to internet and My YouTube StoryBlog 1: How I got interested in the Internet and My YouTube Story
Notes: 
 
Yes everybody this is Dengar999 and also J25TheArcKing (don’t believe I’m Dengar999, read the description below and follow the link.)
  Ok I hope this works well this blog I'm writing. Even though it’s kind of a script I wrote here, so anyways!
  Sometimes I really got nothing to say that I might add too much details or it might be short, because sometimes I might screw up or say the wrong thing which I want to say the right thing but sometimes I got really nothing to say, but in my mind I got a lot of things to say. I’m not really much into talking on what I want to spit out which I always get this writer’s block problem which I got all of my ideas in my brain, but I don’t know how to say it or write it down, but here it goes.
  Yeah I wrote this in Microsoft Word 2010

I edited the grammar, punctuation, spellings, sentences and added bold, italic, underline letters and words, etc... And I added more stuff to it such as new story sentences.

  Ok that's pretty much it being explained about my Blog series.

  So stay inspired!
  • Listening to: Gravity Falls Theme Song
  • Reading: (Nothing)
  • Watching: Finding Dory
  • Playing: Nintendo Land (Wii U)
  • Eating: Teriyaki Experience
  • Drinking: Orange juice
Yawn 

(Journal 144)


(LATE POST)


(Well I already mention this in July. 9, 2016 on Journal 128: Deleted a fanfiction story: Fear.

Deleted a fanfiction story: Fear(Journal 128)
(Edited in July. 20, 2016.)
(I don't think I'll be using that "icon comment plz" no more... Why do people have to comment before favorite if they like that particular thing which they favorite it, how about everybody just express and be themselves instead of being forced to do this and this, they're not causing harm. Everybody is busy in their lives. They're being all nice and they like something that makes them happy which is why they favorite it. They don't need to always comment on each favorite they like, they can just favorite and that's it. If they got nothing to say, then they don't say anything. I want to do something for a change. A new fresh start...)
 The old journal that the fanfiction is published.
 The new journal that the fanfiction is published, a newer version from the J25 The Arc King group.


(I don't think I'll be using that "icon comment plz" no more... Why do people have to comment before favorite if they like that particular thing which they favorite it, how about everybody just express and be themselves instead of being forced to do this and this, they're not causing harm. Everybody is busy in their lives. They're being all nice and they like something that makes them happy which is why they favorite it. They don't need to always comment on each favorite they like, they can just favorite and that's it. If they got nothing to say, then they don't say anything. I want to do something for a change. A new fresh start...)

But I want to mention this on this new journal: Journal 144.

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  Well I'm no longer going to use :iconcommentplz: "icon comment plz" (when not spaced together.)

  While I was cleaning up my deviations, my new ones and old ones and very old ones. I decide to remove the :iconcommentplz: off of them in their descriptions.

  They will still be on my old journals, just for me to remember my old writings from the past memories.
  Like I said, I'm still cleaning up my deviations.


  • Listening to: It'll Be OK by Limp Bizkit
  • Reading: Wikipedia
  • Watching: Zootopia
  • Playing: Grand Theft Auto: The Ballad of Gay Tony (PS3)
  • Eating: Chinese Lobster, white rice and noodles
  • Drinking: Lipton green tea
Cowboy 

(Journal 143)


Well this is not much for me to say on this journal...

If you don't get it, read this first:
Emoticons on Journals are Gone and Removed(Journal 117)
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Am I the only one that posted this news on deviantART?

When you post a journal on deviantART you can add some stuff on what you're been doing such as:
Listening to:
Reading:
Watching:
Playing:
Eating:
Drinking:
Above there was one where you can post your "Mood" emoticon status.

But apparently now its gone and its removed!? But why!?

1. Did deviantART wanted to get rid of it now? (Did people abused it?)
2. Are they updating it or something else?
3. Is it because of lag?

Why did they remove it? It was actually useful to express our mood and feelings, especially in the past years in deviantART. Think about it!  

Ughhhh I real
 So apparently deviantART has removed "Mood" for "emoticons" in "More Options" when you post journals. But they still added:
Listening to: 
Reading: 

Watching: 

Playing: 

Eating: 

Drinking:

  I'm disappointed about the change how they removed "Mood" and "emoticons" in "More Options" when you post journals. It was useful to show everybody how you feel and how is your mood. And I liked it. But now its gone and not there no more, because deviantART removed it.

  In my 4 recent journals from 2017. I added emoticons on top of my journals with the "journal number name" on it and then the "emoticon" on it.

  Well I guess I'll be adding an emoticon on top of my journals that I posted. And it will be just like the "Mood" the old thing like in deviantART when you posted journals.
  Just like old times...

  I hope it doesn't cause lag. I hate lag.

  I'm just showing my mood, of a emoticon on how I feel.

  I just add a "cowboy" emoticon on top of this journal.

  But if I change my mind to not add emoticons. I'll post it in a journal.

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  God I've been MIA for a while, for days...
  So busy with school, studying and stuff...
  I got to get the GeekFest Montreal 2015 photos, Montreal Mini Comic Con 2015 photos, Otakuthon 2016 photos uploaded in my deviantART, it's 2017 now... I'm very slow...


  • Listening to: Shadowlord - NieR Soundtrack
  • Reading: Assassin's Creed: Renaissance
  • Watching: Rogue One: A Star Wars Story
  • Playing: Killzone: Shadow Fall (PS4)
  • Eating: Skitties
  • Drinking: Coke Zero
Worried

(Journal 142)


I Lost the Original Otakuthon 2015, What the Fur 2015 photos / files

(The good news is that the Otakuthon 2015 and What the Fur 2015 photos are already uploaded in my deviantART. But they're the edited ones. Not the original ones.)
  I got some bad news.

  A long time ago, last year. I was doing "cut/copy and paste and saving files" on the main computer (I don't use this computer, but it was the main computer for all of my family to use. I mostly use my laptop.) and one of my USBs to placing them on a disc (CD / DVD.)

The files that were saved on the disc contains:
-Otakuthon 2015 original photos. (Not the edited ones.)
-What the Fur 2015 original photos. (Not the edited ones.)
-My cosplays. (Photos of one of my cosplays.)
-DROO Photographer's photos for my cosplay. (My photographer who took photos of me.)
-Commissions (Commissions I asked for.)
-Facebook photos (I don't go much on Facebook. But these photos are for my personal private life.)
-Others, etc...


  So some days passed... I placed the disc inside my laptop to check in some files and pickup a file. And that was the end...

  Now as of right now. I decide to go on the main computer to check and place one of my USBs to check on files. I even went to check on the disc by placing it. Suddenly it starts loading. And it took like 10 minutes? Long! So when I went to check the disc. It was all empty! What the f&%^!? (I check the properties and it had some space used and free space. What the heck? A f^&%ing Glitch?)
  So I tried to place the disc to my PS3, nothing was loading and showing up.
  Now I went to my cousin's house to place the disc on her iMac. Nothing was loading and showing up. The disc got stuck and I was stressed out completely. So I went home. But in a few hours she manage to get the disc off her iMac.

  I don't know how this happen!? I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! The disc was empty and I lost the original Otakuthon 2015 and What the Fur 2015 photos and the rest of the files and photos! I was so pissed and shocked. I can't believe this would have happened, but how!?
1.
Did the disc got corrupted, everything was all fine after I was done saving, it was over. Now I took the disc off my laptop during those days passed. And now the disc was empty!?
2. Was it a glitch that made it broken? F*%# I hate glitches! F(^*ing technology can be a pain!
3. Or did a f*^&ing computer virus hit through my laptop and erased my files in the disc! F*&(ing a**! I f*&(ing hate those bastards that make those computer viruses!

  All I want to do is arrange things for my school and studies, my personal private life, hobbies and projects.

  I can't take this anymore! It's stressing me out! I'm not good with technology to be honest, life is so difficulty when there are always problems every day, every week, every month, every year! S*&%! I lost the original files photos for Otakuthon 2015 and What the Fur 2015, got dammit! I'm fed up of this bulls*^&!

  Also another thing is when I was using one of my USBs to check on something, it keeps going off, what the F*&%!? F*^&ing technology and their glitches! S*^%!
  But when I tried again, now its working, thank you for f*&^ sake!

  I still can't believe it, I lost the original Otakuthon 2015 and What the Fur 2015 photos files and the rest... I can't never recover them and get them back, it's gone...

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  BUT some good news is that, what I did was I saved the photos and files from my laptop to one of my USBs.

The files that were saved on the USB contains:
-Otakuthon 2015 edited photos.
-What the Fur 2015 edited photos.
-Some of my cosplays. (Photos of one of my cosplays.)
-DROO Photographer's photos for my cosplay. (My photographer who took photos of me.)
-Commissions. (Commissions I asked for.)
-Some of the new Facebook photos. (For my personal private life.)
-Others, etc...

  
  Well I guess this is it...
  I lost the original photos and files and the other rest...

  • Listening to: Superhuman by CFO$
  • Reading: After wisdom teeth surgery papers
  • Watching: Captain America: The Winter Soldier
  • Playing: Twisted Metal Black (PS4)
  • Eating: Ice cream and Jell-O
  • Drinking: Water

Sleep 

(Journal 141)


  Ladies and gentlemen...

  I'm back home from yesterday out of the dentist...

  My surgery... It went somewhat good. I didn't feel pain, only the needles from the beginning which it stings. During the surgery I didn't feel pain at all, just feeling numb and small bumps that didn't hurt and my eyes were close as I'm trying to sleep. Maybe its because the needles made me numb which the doctors were doing that. It took like 2 hours, ughh I don't remember I felt like I lost my memories after the surgery. After I woke up, I felt so much numb around my cheeks and gums, they place 2 paper towels in my mouth to stop the bleeding.

  From the beginning I was nervous on 2 things.
  1. Going to the dentist to get the 4 wisdom teeth removal surgery. I'm afraid of surgery.
  2. Off-topic but... My computer, the stupid computer updates and computer viruses. Funk! It's scaring me too much that I couldn't even eat lunch which I skipped on Thursday. I fainted, sleep, felt very nervous and scared. I just wish we never had these kinds of problems that is keeping me distracted and to everyone around the world the innocent ones, $h!t!!!! I have a fear of computer errors, updates, viruses etc... JUST LEAVE ME ALONE YOU STUPID COMPUTER PROBLEMS FUNK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  Right now I'm doing is:
  -Doing hobbies without moving a lot of my head and face to not feel pain in my cheeks and gums. Let's say going on the computer, playing videogames, reading, drawing, watching TV, shows and movies etc...
  -Resting and sleeping in bed.
  -The only thing I have to eat is soft food that doesn't hurt my gums and the back of it, like ice cream, Jell-O, scrambled eggs, etc... And drinking water.
  -Put and spit salt water out of my mouth to get rid of the bleeding.
  -Put 2 paper towels in my mouth to stop the bleeding.
  -Etc..

  (Oh yeah I remember, I did had surgery a long time ago maybe 1 or 2 times I don't remember! And I don't want to talk about it, one of them was very painfully which I hated feeling a lot of the pain. I just want to let go of this dark past...)

  Wait!? This isn't right! I got my 4 wisdom teeth removed during Friday the 13th! Woooh! 0_0


  • Listening to: The Penitentiary (Eliminator PS1 game OST)
  • Reading: Wikipedia
  • Watching: Captain America: The First Avenger
  • Playing: Metal Gear Solid 4: Guns of the Patriots (PS3)
  • Eating: Chicken nuggets and Chinese noodles
  • Drinking: 2 Water bottles
:shifty: 

(Journal 140)


  Ladies and gentlemen...

  If you have read the title. I'm going to the dentist to have my 4 wisdom teeth removed at Friday. 
  4 wisdom teeth removed from below: 2 teeth and above: 2 teeth in my mouth per each.

  They're going to put me to sleep (feeling numb) and are going to remove my 4 wisdom teeth. (I hope they put me to sleep, because I don't want to be awake and feeling a lot of pain which will scare me.)
  They just want to get this over with fast so it'll be much easier for me instead of waiting which may cause damage to my teeth and mouth.

  I think I repeat this again? But I don't remember if I had surgery once a long time ago or not. Its been a very long time, I don't remember.

  The reason why I posted this journal is because this is important which I'm going to have surgery. 

  I feel nervous... Because I don't want to be awake and feeling a lot of pain during the surgery. I just hope I can be full asleep. And surgery scares me, but I need the surgery because its the only way to heal/recover/fix me.
  I know a little bit on what's going on, I have to read my papers again to see the process.
  I know that once I'll be awake, I'm going to feel pain and will start bleeding that I need a towel cloth to stop the bleeding.

  Anyways that's all for now.
  I hope I'll be fine on the wisdom teeth removal surgery.
  • Listening to: Miraculous Ladybug - Extended theme song NEW
  • Reading: MLP Forums / mlpforums
  • Watching: WWE Survivor Series (2016)
  • Playing: Lost Reavers (Wii U)
  • Eating: 2 boiled eggs, 2 bacon stripes, hash brown
  • Drinking: Mango juice, Water

Sherlock Holmes 

(Journal 139)


  Hello everyone...

 
Its been months and years that I plan to suggest this deviantART Suggestion idea. But I finally made it. But I finally made it by working on it for days and months. Its finally finished.

  I have and I would like a deviantART suggestion to be added to deviantART as of right now or in the near future if the staff can work on this and add this to deviantART please?

  To add a "Number Page" on "All."

  Please look at the 3 screenshots to understand what am I suggesting on what I'm talking about.
Add Number Page on All (my deviantART Suggestion) by J25TheArcKing

  "Featured" has a "Number Page" so its easier for us to go through our "Gallery," but only our featured deviations.
 
  "All" doesn't have a "Number Page" but just a "Next or Previous" which makes it difficult to go through our gallery by going to one page to another page to reach the end or what page we're trying to look for. We can't click on "1," "2," "3," "10," "25" page the pages we're planning to go on.

  So please deviantART and the staffs, please add a "Number Page" on "All."
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  And for the deviantART community, please comment and vote on this. So we can have this added to "All" the "Number Page." Which will make it easier for us to go through our "Gallery's" deviations' artworks, photos, writings, etc... and etc... 

Please vote:

support.deviantart.com/hc/en-u…

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  • Listening to: A Long Way to Nowhere by Sentenced
  • Reading: J25 (my FanFiction)
  • Watching: Tiny Toons Adventures
  • Playing: WWE Day of Reckoning 2 (Nintendo Gamecube)
  • Eating: Lechón with white rice and noodles
  • Drinking: Fruit Punch

(Journal 138)


  (I've been playing my PS4 for a while... And spending time with my family and relatives in parties celebrating Christmas and the holidays...)

  I posted this earlier, because I just want to get this over with before I celebrate my New Year's Eve with my family and relatives.

  New Year's Resolution...
  For 2017...


  It seems for my 2016 this year, it felt half the same thing like last year's 2015...
  And as well as 2014, 2013? 2012???

  Again I find the years, months and days went by fast. Like its already 2016!?
  But now its going to be 2017!!!??? Holy smokes! 
  TIME GOES WAY TOO FAST! I Hate it how time goes way too fast whenever I'm doing something. These hours fly by fast, damn!

  My 2016 year was just ok...
  
  However the good parts for my 2016 are:
  +School was good and ok...
  +I've been studying...
  +Passed one important final exam... Which I'm very proud of.
  +Feeling a little bit much better...
  +Pushed a little bit of myself to do my free time hobbies and projects like my deviantART and other stuff.
  +The vacations that I attended. I really enjoyed them.
  +Meeting old friends, veterans and allies in Otakuthon 2016...
  +Etc...
  I think I miss some on the way, ughh I don't remember... But I can go on listing stuff about my good parts that I like and enjoyed my 2016...

  For my free time hobbies and projects... Dammit here we go again...! I haven't upload much around in 2016 and pushed myself.
  I've been busy with school...
  I was been listening to music 24/7 during free time. It's a terrible habit addiction. HELP! Listening to Music 24/7 is my Addiction!(Journal 136)
  (I have mention and repeat this a few times in my old journal entries that I lost count how many times that I wrote this.)
  Hello everyone...
  
  There is something that I want to talk about.
  Apparently this has been happening since 2014 to 2016 this year. For years, months, days...
  It has become an addicting obsession habit.
  This happens during free time...
  I've been addicted / obsessed to listening to music 24/7.
  On my MP3 players, YouTube, SoundCloud, CDs, etc...
  When I finish my homework, projects, assignments, chores. When its free time I pretty much waste my free time just listening to music and that's it. Either sitting down, walking around, etc...
  Why do I listen to music?
  Because:
  1.
 I need to stop! But its something I'm addict too. I need to read some more morals, life lessons, advices on how can I improve.

  And being bored, lazy, a little depressed, unstable to finish my free time hobbies and projects like my FanFiction, Rants n Opinions, My Blog, my profile page etc...

  For my New Year's Resolution... For 2017...
  I'm not going to write how am I going to improve. It might probably feel the same thing over and over again like 2014, 2015 etc... That's what I think...
  That I won't finish these free time hobbies and projects, just a little and I'll continue listening to music 24/7... I always promise that I'll finish these FanFictions, Rants n Opinions, My Blog, profile page, upload the con photos etc... But I didn't... I'm very slow, lazy, bored, depressed and unstable...
  Especially busy... Still I'm glad that I did well in school and I'm studying well, I did very good on one of my important final exam. I'm very proud of.
  
  That's my prediction that things will feel the same way like 2015, 2014, etc...
 
  Who knows, I might change, improve and do something much better if I push myself more often.  
  Sometimes things get better, depending how you do it and improve yourself. 

  Maybe I won't post another New Year's Resolution for 2018 journal, because its going to be the same thing like last time for 2014, 2015 and this 2016... Dammit...

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  My Christmas was great. I got a new console, a PS4. Yay...! (Seriously? You need PlayStation Plus to play online, wow really?) And I got some money from gifts and nice Christmas cards woo hoo!
  
  Well for December 31, 2016 my family, relatives and I are going to celebrate New Year's Eve by throwing in a party. We might watch "Times Square" on television to see the countdown for 2017. And we will celebrate it!

  Anyways that's all for now...
  Stay strong, stay inspired, stay positive, stay good, stay professional, and stay gold everyone...!

  For 2017...

  And a Happy New Year!



  • Listening to: Ave Maria by Geoff Zanelli
  • Reading: Seven Deadly Sins by Corey Taylor
  • Watching: Hitman 2: Silent Assassin ending
  • Playing: Pure Chess (PS3)
  • Eating: Steak, rice with mixed vegetables and broccoli
  • Drinking: Canada Dry and water

(Journal 137)


(LATE POST)

(It should have been published around August, September or October.)

Otakuthon 2016....(Journal 129)
  (To be honest I was suppose to do a long rant about cosplayers, Nerd / Geek conventions, rude people. But due to writer's block, forget it. I don't have to time to waste. It's the summer, its time to celebrate the summer vacation and I care about my family, relatives, best friends, friends, fans, people who support me more. The good innocent ones. But my long rant was good writing practice for my Rants n Opinions: Rant on cosplayers, Nerd / Geek conventions, it makes me ready to write, I have the ideas and to finish. I rather put it there than here at this journal. I had a choice between writing in this journal either I write: 1. My Rant and going to Otakuthon 2016. Or 2. Going to Otakuthon 2016. But I chose number 2..)
  Wow its summer right away and July? Man the years goes by fast. It still feels like 2

 My thoughts on Otakuthon 2016 and going there for a return...

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  I decide to do it my way of writing this on my own words...

  "my friend, follow your heart, and you have no need for fear in God's house..." - Emilio Vittorio

  Montreal Quebec Canada.
  Otakuthon 2016.
  Sunday August 7, 2016.

  It was over...
  I finish it...
  It was an ok con...
  I guess it helped me escape my dark past. (It's time to forget about it, erase it and move on...)
  I feel a little bit better...

  I only went Sunday for one day, because I was on a vacation trip for 2 weeks with my family and relatives very far away from Quebec. (I enjoyed my vacation trip, it was good and fun with my family and relatives. I have been to that place before when I was a little kid a very long time ago...) Friday is the day I return to Quebec with my family and relatives. Saturday I had to rest and recover, clean up and ready my equipment. Sunday is the only day I went to Otakuthon.

  It was hard to get there, since I don't have my bus card no more (it sucks. Its hard to travel to get to far places now. :C I hate how things change...) I had to get a pickup to head there (especially going home.) Quite far away to Chinatown to the city. 

  Well I was there, I change outside to my cosplay (setting my cosplay equipment up was a pain.)
  I was Lucina (crossplay male) with black armor from Fire Emblem: Awakening.
 
Lucina 2.0,
inspired by Lucina Great Lord, Assassin's Creed 2, Brotherhood, Revelations armor.

  I took a photo of a Undertale cosplayer. My first photo.
  I started going to the registration area to register and get my Sunday pass. I waited in line. I decide to hold my camera and take some photos of these 3 cosplayer girls who have a good effort cosplays, but I like to go for the underrated cosplayers (and make them look like champions. ("Anyone in the world can cosplay, it doesn't matter about size, age, shape, race, complexion, gender, sexuality, etc… As long as the person is nice and respectful and not causing harm, that's what matters…”) Now that I was done registering getting my pass. The 3 cosplayers wanted to take a photo of my cosplay and be in the photo with me as well, mostly because I was nice of them and liking their cosplays. My goodness that was so nice of them. I told them to take care and enjoy their con.

  I went to the exhibition hall, shop around and look for some equipment.
  I met oceantann once again yay I started talking to her about things. Yay...

  Same thing I did, I look around and shop around, take photos, etc...

  I would eventually meet Samuel Vincent and Eric Stuart and Karen Strassman. But apparently I didn't have much time and I was busy around the con. And I didn't have a drawing for them to sign. Meeting more famous voice actors and actresses is difficulty due to the schedules and line ups. 

  I was looking for SpaceSmilodon's table. I found her table I thought that was her at first, but it turns out to be her friends. They told me that she went to get some more new pins. I bought some pins from her table. I like her table, her pins and artworks. I remember her from 2012, now from 2015 it was a coincidence to remember her!
  I saw someone holding a Midna mask (The Legend of Zelda.) The mask looked familiar including the girl holding it. I asked her if she has a deviantART if she's FoxFear09. But it turns out it was her. I'm surprise she was the Midna cosplayer that I met and I remember from Montreal Mini Comic Con 2015. I took a photo of her Midna mask. And we said goodbye to each other. I'm surprise to see her again. Some familiar faces that I see and that I met... Woh...

  I went outside. Wow it was very hot outside. Damn I was sweating in tears in my cosplay. "A lot of blood, sweat and tears..." - Jim Ross.
  I saw this Akatsuki Konan (Naruto: Shippuden) cosplay which I took a photo of her. She looked so familiar that I asked her if she had a deviantART. She said she was doomycaffei. Wow what a coincidence! I remember her and she remembers me. I seen her in the Otakuthon 2011 Halloween party and Otakuthon 2014. We were very happy to see each other. She took some photos of my cosplay and we talked. It was an honor to see her again.

  I went to see my friend NightFrostMoon again. We took some photos and talked. I haven't seen her for a while and talked to her, due to busyness. And I really missed her... She had to go see a meetup schedule with a group apparently and didn't have much time. But she'll be back to see me again. I really like her.

  So I have a photoshoot with melaniewolfrin. Meeting him inside the place was difficult, I was trying to find the location where is it at, but in a few minutes I found him which he was in the middle. We talked and started the photoshoot, my 2nd photoshoot with him and I liked it. It was awesome! He was having a photoshoot with another cosplayer as well. It was also nice that the other cosplayer's boyfriend guarded my bags and equipment by keeping an eye on it. After the photoshoot was done I was going to see his wife. But apparently I had to see my friend which maybe next time I'll see his wife once again. Thank you melaniewolfrin for the photoshoot, it was nice of you!!! I hope to see you again and your wife too! Take care...

  I went to see my friend emperorshaokahn123 and he was with his best friend elkayra8, I use stealth to go behind him and he found me. We talked, hangout for a bit, take some photos. It was great. I enjoyed it.

  I went back to SpaceSmilodon's table. And I see her, SpaceSmilodon! I was so happy to see her, I started talking to her and buying some more stuff from her. It was a coincidence how we met. Wow!!!

  I saw DROOphotographer and his friend. She was happy to see me, including him. I talked a little bit to his friend and it was cool, Droophotographer was very busy I didn't have much time to talk. So we all said goodbye to each other. 

  I met MissMystica again. I was happy to see her with her little brother and friends. They were waiting for me. Her and I take photos and talked. It was nice seeing her again.

  NightFrostMoon and I went to see each other again. We talked. We didn't have much time to do group photos together, because she was running out of time. We said goodbye to each other. I was happy to see her again.

  Now I went to wait for MissMystica and her group. We all started a conversation together. Then we said goodbye to each other since its the end of the day and we all have to go...

  I called for my pickup and just waited there for like 15 or 20 minutes. And I got my pickup heading home...

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  In conclusion Otakuthon 2016 was just ok. I still enjoyed it. The most thing that made me happy is meeting my friends, my allies and the old veterans that I liked to see. The ones that I supported and the ones that supported me. From the past of 2012 to 2016!
  Still Montreal Mini Comic Con 2015 was an escape as well from the dark past...
  I'll give this a 6/10. It was just ok.

  I checked the Otakuthon 2016 panels, no one is hosting any MLP FiM panels, hmm a lot of things has change... As we move on and like new things...

  A few people took some photos of me. Maybe about 8 or more.

  I didn't buy much, I was saving up my money and I was carrying my katana prop and camera 2 things at the same time. My bag is full with my casual clothes, plastic bags (to store my cosplay,) camera box, etc... I only buy pins, 1 poster? 1 t-shirt. And I guess that's pretty much it. I was been busy carrying my equipment and in the con.

Positives:
-Meet some old veterans that I liked, are my friends, the ones that I supported, the ones that supported me, from the past of 2012... To 2016!
-Enjoyed melaniewolfrin's 2nd photoshoot again.
-SpaceSmilodon's table was great, it was nice seeing her and her friends too. A great talk!
-Seeing doomycaffei was awesome, I was very happy to see her and finally talk to her.
-I'm glad to see my friend MissMystica and to talk to her.
-I'm happy to see my friend NightFrostMoon again. Yay...!
-Seeing my friend emperorshaokahn123 was nice, including his best friend elkayra8.
-It was nice meeting oceantann again.
-DROOphotographer and his friend, its cool seeing them.
-Bought some cool pins, a poster and t-shirt, cool stuff...
-It was ok the con, just better.
-Took some photos.

  I'll upload the Otakuthon 2016 photos sooner or later.

  Thank you SpaceSmilodon, NightFrostMoon, emperorshaokahn123, elkayra8, MissMystica, doomycaffei, oceantann, FoxFear09, melaniewolfrin, DROOphotographer and his friend,
my family, relatives, best friends, and friends. And the people who support me and my fans.


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  Let's see what happens in the very far future...

  No time to get angry or rage, do it later for the rant...

  I don't think I'll be calling it the road to Otakuthon no more...




  "Always knew I didn't belong in this world. I wasn't made for this. But I'll never forget- those who betrayed me, and those who never failed my trust. I'll be carrying nothing from Gontranno but this lesson: never trust anyone and rely on your instincts. Forget the past. I'll never find peace here. So, I'll seek justice for myself. I'll choose the truth I like." - Agent 47

 


  I miss the past of Otakuthon 2011...




  • Listening to: Black by Sevendust
  • Reading: Homefront: The Voice of Freedom
  • Watching: Four Brothers (clip scenes)
  • Playing: Grand Theft Auto: The Lost and Damned (PS3)
  • Eating: Kraft Dinner with hot dog
  • Drinking: Coffee

(Journal 136)


  (I have mention and repeat this a few times in my old journal entries that I lost count how many times that I wrote this.)

  Hello everyone...
  
  There is something that I want to talk about.
  Apparently this has been happening since 2014 to 2016 this year. For years, months, days...
  It has become an addicting obsession habit.
  This happens during free time...

  I've been addicted / obsessed to listening to music 24/7.
  On my MP3 players, YouTube, SoundCloud, CDs, etc...
  When I finish my homework, projects, assignments, chores. When its free time I pretty much waste my free time just listening to music and that's it. Either sitting down, walking around, etc...

  Why do I listen to music?
  Because:
  1. It cools me down and reduces my stress level. Makes me relax and calm.
  2. Sometimes I feel like things are too quiet that I need sound to make things a lot better.
  3. When I listen to music around my computer, I feel nervous and get afraid of computer viruses and popups that I decide to make some noise of turning on some music like 1. and 2..
  4. Sometimes I have nothing better to do, so I just follow this habit to make me feel better, but it wastes my time. If I wanted to do something I'll just listen to music. 

  Man listening to music is like smoking (even though I don't smoke, I eat smoke beef.) 
  It kind of makes me lose my memory as well of not remembering anything of making me want to forget about bad/dark things. It even removes some positive good things and some morals, advices, tips, conversations from family, relatives, best friends, friends, etc...
  It makes me not talk that much to/with my family, relatives. (Good part is I talk to my best friends and friends without pulling out my MP3 player.)
  
  BUT The good news is at school, during class, or break time or lunch time, I don't listen to music or bring my MP3 player to school. I just work on my work, homework, assignments, projects and study. Especially doing chores.
I only listen to music when its free time. 

  I need to stop listening to music 24/7, its a complete addiction obsession. It wastes my free time hobbies, making me feel lazy to do other hobbies, the music just makes me want to relax and rest and not do anything.
  
  Heck even nigahiga is addicted to videogames a long time ago, even though he manage to conquer it. Proof: www.youtube.com/watch?v=HGwerm… (you don't have to watch the whole entire video. Just the beginning part.)
  If he can conquer it, then I can as well and I know it! If I can try and attempt it... 

  I need some more tips, morals and advices.
  I know some:

  1. Don't listen to music, plain and simple. Just do your other hobbies.
  2. Maybe listen to music and then do another thing at the same time. (Even the negative part is that I'm listening to music.)

  Anyone have more tips, morals, advices? Please...? Help me out...

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  From the beginning before I started working on this journal I started listening to a few half songs music for a few minutes $h!t... After I upload this journal, right now I'm not listening to music. $h!t I'm just listen to one song as of right now, but now I stop.
  • Listening to: Inner City Blues by Marvin Gaye
  • Reading: Grand Theft Auto IV (Wikia)
  • Watching: United States presidential election of 2016 on TV
  • Playing: Sift Heads 3
  • Eating: Nachos with cheese and ketchups
  • Drinking: 2 cans of Pepsi

(Journal 135)


  Bad news everyone.

  To my friends, fans, people who support me. Just looking at the title, I got some bad news.

  So there is my YouTube: Dengar9999
  My Google Plus (which I don't bother to look at it and care about it, I don't use Google Plus at all. I don't like Google Plus.)
  And one of my emails.

  Apparently I did a mistake which was possibly broken. 
  I... apparently... deleted/closed... one... of... my... emails... a very long time ago in one of the years. 2013? 2014? I don't remember maybe because I figure out there wasn't a point on having this email.
  And this email was part of my YouTube Dengar9999. 
  $hit what was I thinking!? Its going to be impossible to get my YouTube Dengar9999 back if someone hacks through it which I have to be real careful! Recovering it is going to be impossible and the hard part. I wonder if my Google Plus can work to recover it, but I don't use Google Plus.

  I still have my YouTube Dengar9999 and I can use it. Its just I have to be careful not to lose it.
  The only thing I do for YouTube is watch videos, listen to music, rate videos either like or dislike button, upload some small videos (I'm semi retired YouTuber. I don't make videos anymore. I'm a FanFiction writer.)

  F&*#! I'm f&%$ing nervous... $hit! I shouldn't have done that, but I didn't know that.

  I thought I was the only one, but it happened to almost everybody. I heard some people on YouTube cannot get access their YouTubes, because of Google Plus and something. So they have to make another one. I feel sorry for them, $hit.
  
  I have my very old YouTube Dengar999 as well and one of my emails for it is fine.
  Heck, I even have another email where I don't even use it that much, I don't know what am I going to do with it...?
  I guess that's the only announcement I have to say...
  
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  Well in this world we live in, we're all human beings, we're not perfect and we will make mistakes.

  I just want to let go of this, and this dark past and move on...
  I just want to start all over...

  Ughh my brain!
  • Listening to: Rock Style 2 - RollerCoaster Tycoon 2 soundtrack
  • Reading: The Berenstain Bears conspiracy articles
  • Watching: Puss in Boots (2011)
  • Playing: The Last of Us (PS3)
  • Eating: Italian poutine and meat submarine sandwich
  • Drinking: Mango juice and water

(Journal 134)


  I feel unsure but, when I delete an important FanFiction story or just an ordinary FanFiction story for my/the J25 The Arc King series, I think I should probably just publish it in my J25 The Arc King group journals: j25-the-arc-king.deviantart.co… , instead of advertising it in my profile of/to journals and instead of making journal versions in my profile with less writings of a shorter version of it of advertising the full version written why I deleted it. Since it kind of takes space on my journals.

  But if the FanFiction story is not related to the J25 The Arc King series. Then I'll publish it in my profile of/to journals. I don't publish anything not related to the J25 The Arc King series to my group.

  Ok now that's out of the way...

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  Ladies and gentlemen... I'm sorry...

  I'm sorry everyone...

  Deleted: RWCWF: The Adventures of Rikishi(Blog 13)
  Ladies and gentlemen... I'm sorry...
  The FanFiction story was an alternate universe, the RWCWF. It was for the J25 The Arc King series, it was a character's story.
  I have deleted the fanfiction story: RWCWF: The Adventures of Rikishi.
 
  The reasons why I deleted it:
  1. It was hard for me to write the fight scenes and how am I going to describe it which will take a lot longer with a lot of words to it (well that's the way its suppose to be when you're writing a story.)
  2. I couldn't do it and finish it, because I've been very busy and lazy during the days, months and years.
  3. It didn't fit well and right for my J25 The Arc King series and RWCWF, on the timelines. I didn't f


  • Listening to: This Machine by Groundbreaking (Julien-K cover)
  • Reading: My FanFiction writing notes
  • Watching: From Paris with Love
  • Playing: Call of Duty: Black Ops (PS3)
  • Eating: 1 slice of all dress pizza
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola Zero

(Journal 133)


  Hello ladies and gentlemen...
  I decided to change something around my journals' posts.
  I just went through my journals.

  I will no longer place, mark and write:

(LATE POST)

on my journal titles.

  One because it takes too much letters/characters and space on my journal titles topics. Which its hard to see the journal title topic post when the (LATE POST) is in the way.

  To know if its going to be a late post, it will be written in the journal writings and descriptions, not marked in the journal title.

  Anyways that's all for now!

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Oh oh! The title of this journal says: LATE POSTS

"Lol hehe!" - D.Va

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