(Journal 204)
Hello ladies and gentlemen...As some of you may know, I haven't work and upload all of the:
-Otakuthon 2017 photos
-Otakuthon 2018 photos
-Mini Comic Con 2018 photos(I think I finish all of the Comic Con 2017 photos? I'm not sure if I'm going to upload the other photos or I won't just for personal reasons.) They were suppose to be all uploaded in 2017 and 2018 all complete.
I have forgotten about this.
The reasons why I haven't work on them:1. I'm been busy with my personal life:
School, serious things, etc...2. I'm tired, exhausted, lazy, unstable, depressed and I suffer a burnout.
3. I'm doing my other hobbies and hobby tasks.
4. I'm doing some serious literature writing practice.
5. I'm more active in my current new
dA: J25TheArcKing2.6. I needed this break.
The little good news is that yesterday I uploaded 16 photos from the 3 nerd / geek conventions.
Maybe I might upload some more, depending if I'm feeling like too or if I'm active.
If I change my mind and I'm uploading more of them, so that means I want to finish it all.
___ As you can from the title I'm putting it on
hiatus. I'm taking a break, because I want to do the things that I want to do and I have forgotten about this since those past many years from 2011 to 2018.
Sure I did the things that I like to do in the past years, but I have forgotten much of some of it that I kept focusing on nerd / geek conventions 24/7 and I have forgotten about myself.
Maybe many months or next year I'll probably come back and make a return to finish all of the 3.
___ This is an important
announcement that I would like to make...
I have been thinking about this throughout the months / weeks / days.
Once I'm done all of the 3 cons' photos,
I'm no longer going to upload nerd / geek cons' photos...The reason is because:1. I'm tired of doing this.
2. I have forgotten about myself that I want to do the things that I want to do to make myself happy. My hobbies.
3. I have become an overgiver of doing this for everyone.
4. (Sorry for the drama) For my experience, in the past nerd / geek conventions there were nice people there, but now everybody is becoming rude / disrespectful and they're judging on the way you look, what character you're cosplaying as and what fandom you're in. It's kind of sad how they treat you differently on the way you're dressed. These rude / disrespectful people can't learn to grow up, have no respect and they're in their mid 20s, 30s. WTF! (I have a lot of things to say to be honest, but it'll take a lot of writing to write this done what I have to say...)
But however I might upload some if I take some with my camera or I liked it or if I liked that cosplayer (if its a nice cosplayer, friendly, respectful, someone that I can trust).
Well I guess this is it...
This will be the last thing and then its over...
The end of an era...___
2019...
Where the sacrifice begins...
This will be the end...
I'm very scared, nervous, stressed, shocked, unstable, exhausted, tired, depressed...
I want to escape this...
But I don't have a choice...
To get cure and to be alive...
For a checkup...
Everything is going to change...
I'm sorry to my family, relatives, best friends, friends, allies, fans, people who support me...
No matter what happens...
Our good memories will never be erased...